After so long, came to realised that every humans are weak and fragile.. No matter how strong you act, how happy you look, how clever you are.. Deep inside there is a weak point which can kills..


Its the first time you cry in front of me. And its the first time i felt so heartache to see that.. I didnt know how to express my thoughts and feel, its was hurting inside my heart.. But what can I do to help you? Even thou i thought of doing this or that.. But at last, i know it will never work.. sighs! Felt so useless.. :( realli hope all this fucking rubbish thingys can faster finish and i know it will never be settled once and for all.. That's for sure! Sighs.. Life is getting super sians now.


Might be going to genting soon again.. Hope this time can go, got the feel to leave singapore awhile again.. Dunno since when I hate to be in singapore, althou i missed my bedroom, my bed, my pillow and my cute lil pillow. Sighs!


Just leave me alone in my Lala Land and I'll be fine. I need to have a space of my own and think.

Just got back from genting last night.. Cant say realli fun, cos its just a short trip with family.. But have really relax myself there with the cool weather and gambling..! First time gamble over there.. and it makes me realise that Jackpot can be really addictive! And i lose money there! lols.. But its kinda experience.. :) not bad.. will go there win back all my monies! (HARD LA)! hahaha!


Took night coach to genting.. on the way there.. the road is so so dark.. but is good..! the sky is full of stars.. so0o happy to see that.. can "talk" to them again.. sometimes, taking a long coach journey is good.. listening to my favourite songs during the journey, makes me think of alot of things.. whether it is good or bad, at least I have the time to all myself.. I think i will take coach more often.. :)


我讨厌黑夜因为会觉得孤单
我讨厌孤单的感觉因为会觉得想哭
我讨厌想哭的感觉因为会觉得自己很脆弱...

我想变成一个坚强的人, 不想因为小事就掉泪的人
我讨厌现在的自己...

Today is 2nd of may. Sunday, weather quite hot and i am in office with coat on and air-con off. It's b'cos.. I'm sick! Sighs.. After drinking the java chip yesterdae, feeling veri unwell.. gonna fever soon.. sighs! ate med, but still not feeling good.. sighs!

Yest is our 1st yr anni.. was suppose to give him a surprise.. bring him out for a short getaway! but due to work wise, unable to do that. hais.. So we jus spent our day in suntec! hahas! been drinking for straight 2 days.. now see martell, abit phobia.. omg.. haha! going to genting next week alrd.. gonna leave dis hot hot singapore for 2 days.. :)

Work till veri veri sians.. everydae drag myself to work! omg! please pray for me to get a new job veri soon! :)

Back to stoning time.. :(