After so long, came to realised that every humans are weak and fragile.. No matter how strong you act, how happy you look, how clever you are.. Deep inside there is a weak point which can kills..


Its the first time you cry in front of me. And its the first time i felt so heartache to see that.. I didnt know how to express my thoughts and feel, its was hurting inside my heart.. But what can I do to help you? Even thou i thought of doing this or that.. But at last, i know it will never work.. sighs! Felt so useless.. :( realli hope all this fucking rubbish thingys can faster finish and i know it will never be settled once and for all.. That's for sure! Sighs.. Life is getting super sians now.


Might be going to genting soon again.. Hope this time can go, got the feel to leave singapore awhile again.. Dunno since when I hate to be in singapore, althou i missed my bedroom, my bed, my pillow and my cute lil pillow. Sighs!


Just leave me alone in my Lala Land and I'll be fine. I need to have a space of my own and think.

Just got back from genting last night.. Cant say realli fun, cos its just a short trip with family.. But have really relax myself there with the cool weather and gambling..! First time gamble over there.. and it makes me realise that Jackpot can be really addictive! And i lose money there! lols.. But its kinda experience.. :) not bad.. will go there win back all my monies! (HARD LA)! hahaha!


Took night coach to genting.. on the way there.. the road is so so dark.. but is good..! the sky is full of stars.. so0o happy to see that.. can "talk" to them again.. sometimes, taking a long coach journey is good.. listening to my favourite songs during the journey, makes me think of alot of things.. whether it is good or bad, at least I have the time to all myself.. I think i will take coach more often.. :)


我讨厌黑夜因为会觉得孤单
我讨厌孤单的感觉因为会觉得想哭
我讨厌想哭的感觉因为会觉得自己很脆弱...

我想变成一个坚强的人, 不想因为小事就掉泪的人
我讨厌现在的自己...

Today is 2nd of may. Sunday, weather quite hot and i am in office with coat on and air-con off. It's b'cos.. I'm sick! Sighs.. After drinking the java chip yesterdae, feeling veri unwell.. gonna fever soon.. sighs! ate med, but still not feeling good.. sighs!

Yest is our 1st yr anni.. was suppose to give him a surprise.. bring him out for a short getaway! but due to work wise, unable to do that. hais.. So we jus spent our day in suntec! hahas! been drinking for straight 2 days.. now see martell, abit phobia.. omg.. haha! going to genting next week alrd.. gonna leave dis hot hot singapore for 2 days.. :)

Work till veri veri sians.. everydae drag myself to work! omg! please pray for me to get a new job veri soon! :)

Back to stoning time.. :(

Wow! havent been updating my bloggy for months! Came in to clear some of the spiders.. alot of spider webs.. (said by mag! hahah!)

Came back from taiwan for one week plus already. Really missed there alot alot alot.. How i wish i can migrate there and don come back to singapore. :( But, its daydreaming.. Back to reality! phew!

Gonna travel again soon, but not taiwan.. is genting and somewhere which i'm planning now. Heez.. Hope it will be a good one! :D wheEeEe~!

Haven been drinking for the past 1 mth?! oh nooo.. I so-got-da-feel to drink can! hahas! anything can be addictive, once we enjoy the accompany of it!

Been so bored in office. Esp when they are leaving me soon.. Mayb its time for me to think about it and move on already. Since i don enjoy working there, whats the use of staying.. Althou I'm not sure whether the choice to leave the comfort zone will be good or bad.. But.. Life is full of regrets, If we don have any regrets, then we wont know what is good memories.. :)

1st of may coming already!! WHEEEE!!

FB FB FB.. it became an addict for me. Gosh.. Worse then friendster time! hahas! Found some meaningful sentences over there.. Will post it here.. (:

I pushed you away because i knew that if you stayed, i could never turn you down. you are the most beautiful and most terrible thing that's ever happened to me.

And one more.. I think hai pai tian xin got said this or similar? hehe..

Trying To Forget Someone You've Loved Is Like Trying To Remember Someone You've Never Met


Last nite work nite shift.. After working went to have porridge supper! Yummy! And.. there's alot alot of stars over there! How i wish my house is over there. Den everynite i can look at the stars.. (: hehe.. Okies.. I'm day-dreaming again! My B'dae and CNY is just around the corner! Whooo! Our plannings qi qi ba ba alrd! hehe! What present will I be receiving? *hint hint!* =D~~~ hohoho.. I'm waiting! (:

And looking at those old fotos.. Out of sudden.. I miss SSF alot.. Sighs.. When can we ALL go out together and have FUN? Its been a long time since ALL of us go out and share stories, problems, and of cos Laughters! :( I missing you all.. s0bx s0bx!

Today is 1st of Feb.... That means in 10 days time i will be 23 years old?! Goshh.. Ownself write the age also feel so old alreadi.. Another 2 yrs.... Mid twenties.. Damn old liaos can! :(

Dis sat shopping! Chiong ahhs! How oso mus buy some clothes!! :( next week CNY! extra income timing.. hohoho..! saving for taiwan! (: I'm so so so eggcited can! =D

Hmmms.. Went to dye and cut my hair yesterday! And talk to the auntie for some personal thingys.. Felt so bad after talking to her.. Kinda let someone down ya! I'm not as good as what you think of me.. Hope the someone will try to accept and stay happy alwaes! Althou probably wont be seeing the someone anymore agains.. Bud still.. Thanks for the good care during the years.. Esp when coming to CNY, make me feels like eating the things that especially bought, reserved and make for me.. Really appreciated loads! Wont be having this chance agains.. Hope your family stay healthy alwaes! (: (Is a HER!)

Working now.. Supposed to have a good Sat Mood cos going out after work for CNY shopping Day2.. Bud somehow one FUCKING Bitch Ruin my day! Oh fuck! NOBODY WANNA FUCK YOU ALRD? FAN JIAN! ALWAES GO CLUB ONS! Worse then a PROSITUTE!


Just need to vent my anger! Phew! Feel better! (: